General: Been lets see...almost a week since my last update. Has been a busy week so i do apologise for my absence <---*haha if anyone misses my blog tt is :P * Ok..where do we begin...Lets start with tonight first. Poor blokes at the work place been working since morning and continued on till the night. Tried to do my best to lighten the work load. Was everywhere tonight and did almost everything. And i gotta say, it felt HELLA GOOD. Its that feeling of satisfaction u get when you know you've made a difference :). Vinodh has been particularly friendly to me lately. Kinda gives me the creeps. Oh well, i aint complaining heh. Alec's gone for reservist so he's gonna be gone for a week i guess. Yay. No 'Louie' clothes to wash for a week :P.

Friends: Yana asked me out to a picnic at East Coast on the 25th. Contemplating whether to go or not. Since my off on the 20th is for now 'burnt', i'm thinking i should spend the day at home. Need me rest too. Life's been hectic. School, gym then to work. But it reminds me of the joy of being alive. Muscle aches. Pain's pleasure haha. So flattered that Yana's friend likes me..whats her name...argh..im terrible at remembering names. Think its because ive lost weight lol. Yay diet!! Guess its working heh. Who needs weighing scales. The ladies speak for themselves. Ego trip. I know.

Romance: Have nothing to report really. Things are going as per normal. Yihui's been at her usual sweet self. Got me teabags to soak me feet in altough i have to say..they smell kinda like oranges now. Better then smelling like wet socks i guess heh. She's such an angel. Ok..before i get in over my head i better stop heh. Only time will tell my friend. Till then eh.

Ok me stamina is busted. Need rejuvination Ommmmm. See you folks in a bit. So take care and remember that an object in motion will remain in motion unless acted on by another force.

General: The first round of the Singapore Idol audition is over. To the second round! Yay me! Credit goes to Jerry for getting me that elusive queue sticker :) Thanks babes. Both you and i know i cant thank you enough. Neways, had to go through 6 yes..6 seperate queues. The main queue outside, the registration queue inside, the tag sticker queue, the hotseat queue, the audition queue and finally *phew* the results queue. All in all, from the time the floodgates were open to the time i got my results, a svelt 6 hours. Worth the effort if u asked me. Not the audition itself but the experience in a whole. Had to entrust strangers with my belongings and these strangers did the same. It was a 'i hope you're not an asshole who'll run away with my barang-barang' agreement that everyone had though non was made verbally or written down. Shared a tent with 2 girls, both of whom i haven't met before in my entire life. They were kind enough to let me shelter with them while the horrid rain spiked down on the crowd. Kudos to the people that stuck through the rain and lightning whilst the majority of the masses, who were smart enough to realise that the next flash of lightning might put them on the cover of tomorrow's papers for all the wrong reasons, took shelter at the nearby Suntec towers. That said, looking forward to the next round which will be on the 20th at Suntec. Praying for good weather and a not so horrid sea of people.

Friends: Sharil is back at work after 10 days of medical leave. He's looking healthier now on the contrary to people not having the confidence that he'd even make it through the rest of the work night. By healthier i mean he's not skinny anymore. If you guys don't already know, Sharil and i are on a diet. He however took it a little to the extreme. But of course, his results were more evident. Then again, im happy with the slow progress im making. Its not how long you take that matters i guess. What matters is that you get there eh mate!Habib and yana called. Been ages since i last went out with them. Sigh...miss the good old days.

Romance: Going has been good. Both of us are now less afraid to be intimate i guess. More hugs, mushier SMSes...slow steps but hey, check above for philosophical annex. Planned to bring her to this YoYoMa concert on the 20th but sadly, as i reconfirmed, the tickets are sold out. Have to plan something else then. 20th also happens to be my audition date so, maybe she can stick around Suntec with me. Would love the support :). I've never been this patient before come to think of it. But there's just something about her that i know is worth all the effort and wait. I may never get to find out what that is but whatever it may be, the way im feeling now, it can't be bad. It just can't :).

Okie Dokes. Its 1.50pm. Jeff Corwin will be on in 10 mins. I'll see you guys again. Hopefully in the near 2, 3 days to come yar. Buhbyes. Support your local skate park!

General: That's when i love you...dum dee dum...greetings and salutations once again. Lets start off with Rose. Rose has sadly resigned from the night safari in a very brief, concise episode. Guess what Rohan said pushed her off the edge. Poor girl. Its a tough world out there so, pray that life is kind on her. Poh Shan's back at work. Soon to be joined by Jerry who's scheduled to come back this Saturday. Mmm..what else...Shiet. Had nospeakers for the first show today. Had to shout my way through the commentary. Must have looked like a bafoon. Bleargh. Fixed the speakers for the second show though...a lil better but still, no music. Well, its about making do with what you have eh mate ;)

Friends: Still no call from Habib. Bugger's being a biatch. ^%&#@. But tis ok. Mesa understand. Been there done that bro. Army life can be a social deprevation at times. Lets just wait till you ORD aight. Aight. Bonded with the baby civet todae. Had a nice 10 mins with the freak. Naughty but he's cute so it don't matter haha. Scars evident of my bonding time with him. Battle wounds to look back upon. You better not forget me when you grow up you sapling!

Romance: The more i learn, the more i love. It can't be more cliche then this. But i'm learning new things about her each and everyday and it sorta makes me wanna find out more about her. Well, in time to come i will i guess. Bought her a callus-removal bandaid for the 'growth' on her elbow. Hope it works. Got her some lotion too for scars and what-have-yous. My brave little binturong veteran...*swoons* hahaz. God in heaven, do watch over her when my eyes fail me. Do listen to her when im not there to hear her. And to be there for her when im not around to catch her fall. Amen. That's when i love you. I love you no matter what.
Did i say the 'L' word...heck. It feels right though :)

Till me next rant, please remain seated as we have the owl coming in in low flight. Ditto.

General: Whoah. Just realised i haven't made an entry for quite a while. Don't want this to be another blog that gathers dust now do we...*wipes away cobwebs* That said, its been quite an ok couple of days. Oooh ooh! Singapore Idol is just a week away. Sure as hell hope i know what im getting myself into. Well, aim for now is to give it my best and all fingers crossed, make it to the next round. Anything else that comes after is a plus. Work is good, work is good. Yeah, work is good. Poh Shan and Jerry will be coming back next week. Heard news that Sharil was admitted into the hospital for a couple of days. He's out now. So, hope he's feeling better. So much for healthy diets huh. *grunts*

Friends: Habib hasn't been ringing me for a month now. Wonder what he's up to. Bugger too busy in camp i guess. Well, do give me a call sometime buddy. Would love to see how me bestest mate is doing yar. Hmm what else..lets see lets see...Ahhh...new additions to the show animals. 2 new baby servals who i must say are as cute as a button have joined in our cohort of very wild, birthday party going, photograph taking, QnA session animals that we already have in a most impressive roll call. *this roll call includes 2 pumas of which, 1 is gay* Amazing. One day the racoons will jump off 20 foot logs and the servals will recycle trash. When that day comes, i'll be Nelson Mandela's toy boy. No harm in hoping now hmm =)

Romance: Nothing much to say bout this section sadly. But things are going fine i guess. Kinda disappointed tt she didn't write to me over the weekends. Bleagh. She did mention she didn't want that (writing to me over the weekends) to become a routine itself so, me undershtand yesh. Life's about giving so until this lightbulb blows, imma keep shining. Whoah. Self-note:- Consider counseling as full-time job. Habib, if u dont call me quick, i might have to de-throne you from the best buddy spot. Yihui looks like a strong candidate mate. So, before the usurping begins pls get in touch haha. Note to Yihui:- Your hair is find darling. Flaps and all. Great. I smell piss. If it's Esbok, im going to crucify the bugger, mallet him down to the ground downstairs and feed him to cockroaches. Then again, he's cute. But i still smell piss....

Otay. This should suffice for now people. My vocab is drained. It is after all 3 in the morning. Until next time, remember to fill the ice-trays in the freezer if they're empty. Think of the person after. Now, scram and leave meh alone. *puts on lipstick and spins barry manilow on the player*

General: Yeah its been a while since my last entry. Not that much has happened since then. Life's been pretty stagnant lately. My cousin Samirah got married on Monday so all the best to both her and her husband. Not a bad looking guy girl...someone's been doing their homework. I've tried to live my life with a smile on my face but its kinda hard to mask myself. I hate it when people ask me why im feeling down or why im quiet. Cut me some slack pls...i cant be happy 24/7. I know they mean well but sometimes i need time out too i guess. Work is well. Have feedback that im a clown on stage. Contemplating to change name tag to 'Bozo'. Taking it all in stride.

Friends: Hmmm same old same old for this section i guess. Like i've said, not much has been happening. Jerry should be coming back soon so, looking forward to seeing her again. And Poh Shan of course. Then everything at work should be back to normal again. At least, i hope it does. Suppose to have practice today but...no ring from Sharil. Nvm..will ask him bout it later. One week and change to Singapore Idol. Make or break. Another good reason to quit my job at the zoo.

Romance: Non-mover as well. Confusion clouds this here department. Michelle asked me to go serious with her. Kinda feel cheated. She's a great girl and all but i really tot we had a great friendship going. Michelle, if you do read this well, i really want us to be friends. There's still alot about you ive yet to find out about. And it goes both ways. You'll still be my ala-carte michy-wishy lol. Singlehood beckons. Its not that bad i guess. As for whats going on between me and Yihui, i think we're destined to be just friends and nothing more. Judgement has never been this clouded. She's already seeing someone so i might as well back off. Plus im leaving the work behind soon so i guess its best to leave with no strings attached. Another time, another place, things might have been different. But hey...its a hard knock life. But of course imma get up from this fall as well as ive always done in the past. Love waits for no man so, i guess its time to cut my losses and move on. I know...God knows i do...I've wished for things that i don't need...
Oh well, to infinity and beyond. Stepping stones aplenty.
Smile Yusof smile...or they'll start acting funny again. :) There we go... Off to work.

General: Yesterday was a day filled with dark episodes. Today however, the weather, my friends, family and God Himself have lifted away the rain clouds and showed me the green pastures ive stood on all this while. He's a miracle worker i tell you. Yes. My today was nothing short of a miracle. That feeling of zen. Of total inner peace. I understand it now. Have resolved some family issues and surprisingly, well to me at least, it was already resolved. Seems my parents have already come to an understanding of sorts and to think all this while, i was keeping my mouth shut about the problem. Shall not go into detail. Lets just say, alls well that ends well. Work was ok. Nothing much to talk about at work. Mr V. Absent. Rohan. Absent.

Friends: Went out with Yihui and er...what's her friend's name again...dang..im a mess at remembering new people. Anyways, a nice chap. Had lunch with them at the Takashimaya foodcourt. 'B' grade food, office-hour crowd, didnt really have that good a lunch :P. That aside, after-lunch drinks at Wheellock place was ok. Saw Robin Leong. He's bald now. Not completely but a number 1 cut at least. So the prisoner. Badboy haircut. Bleagh.

Romance: I did it. I finally did it. Testicals in mouth i told her how i felt. And the response. Fantastico. She did however mention that if we weren't collegues, she'd have gone out with me. Plus the fact that she's seeing 'Eating' *confirmed it today as well*, i'd say i got the long end of the stick :). She asked to give it more time. Well, u cant rush a good thing so im ok with waiting. At least i found out that she feels the same way too. God in heaven, my prayers you have answered. I cannot thank You enough for the blessings you've showered upon me. Yihui my friend, thanks for listening to my woes just now. I know now that you have a better perspective of things when they're in the open, rather then in the dark. Thank you for being who you are. *kisses clover* This baby's gonna get the best spot in moi room *shoves cat away* haha.

Gdnight all and pleasant dreams. This is Yusof going under. Dive, Dive, Dive!

General: This diet is getting me no where. I've had comments that my face has shrunk. A consolation of sorts considering my HEAD IS SMALLER THEN MY BODY. Thank you. No i mean it. THANK YOU. Still, i shall resist and persist. We'll give this a few more weeks. If all else fails, on to Plan B. God knows what that is. Just sounds 'pro'. Days have been whizzing by lately. Need to spend a whole day by myself and just recollect what i've done so far. Hell, that should only take about 5 minutes actually. Zip. Nada. Kosong. Piss on me for letting life go by so easily. Maybe work is getting to me. I've never commited myself to a job before and just between you and me, its eating most of my time. Well, whats left of it anyways. Not that i don't enjoy the work, i do. It's just that i've somehow or rather lost the sense of direction i used to have. Maybe its not lost. Misplaced perhaps. Perhaps.

Friends: Rose is gonna present tomorrow. At long gawddamn last. The girl has been waiting for sho long. Hope she gives it her all. Confident that she'll carry off a great show :). Its Premela's birthday today. So Happy Birthday girl!! To many many more birthdays to come. She actually ate the volunteer grape today. The grape that came from the amphitheatre, into the fridge for who knows how long, into a container full of eggs, into my pocket, from a boy from India's hand who i pray does not have typhoid. Mmmmm...tasty. Happy Birthday to Jerry too who's in NZ now. Miss her so. Hope she's doing ok. Cant wait to see her. Kinda miss transport rides home with her :D

Romance: I think i've come to what i think is a sane decision. Looking back at the bombardment of SMSes ive been sending Yihui, i think im taking this a little too far. Might even be scaring her off. Thought long, thought hard. And i think its best Yihui and i remain friends. Have this gut feeling that she just wants to be friends too. Considering all things, we might as well remain friends and build on what we've already established. Call me a pansy if you will, but its unfair if she's trying to build a good friendship on one hand and im trying to wreck it by saying i fancy her on the other. Maybe im thinking too much. Yeah i am. I just don't wanna hurt her. God no. Time to be unselfish and let things be. Yeah. So what if im missing the chance to find out if she shares the same feelings. I dont think its worth risking our relationship as friends. WHAT THE HELL AM I SAYING...I like the girl for crying out loud. God. If its one thing that your humble servant is asking from you now, its guidance. Show me what to do. Tell me what to say. I may not be perfect, but its these imperfections and flaws that make me who i am and not anyone else. *deep breath IN....OUT...* Ok. We'll see where this goes. If she likes me she'll say so. She's one of the smartest people i know and from what ive already known abotu her, well, i think she wont be so cruel as to lead me on. As for telling her how i feel, lets just put that back into the pocket. So for now, the plan is less SMSes, give her little hints and if she catches it then, wish me luck. If she doesn't, well, shoot me in the eye and call me Sally.

Funny how its easy to dish out advice but when its crunch time, its harder then it seems. Much harder. Goodnight one and all. Too dazed for silly catchphrases.

General: Did the show again today. Kinda screwed the first one up but hey..we live and learn. Its different when you're up there watching the show and down there where the metal meets the meat. So i thank Almighty God for giving me the courage and strength to pull me through the day. Some of the guys are going out clubbing tonight to some RnB club. Wish i could come along but have an early morning tomorrow so, had to turn down the offer. But Premela looks hella good in that black dress.OOOhhhh...i tells yous....black dress...black attitude...to die for my friend *whistles*

Friends: Guess what. Alec and Gin are together again after a brief one day break up. I think im more confused then they are. Gin waited for Alec today at the stop outside the zoo. Kinda sweet considering the amount of time she had to kill in between. The things people do for love *sigh* So mushy..so cheeky...cheeky girl haha :D. Damn pedro bit my hand. Thought he was the friendly one. Bugger couldn't tell the end of the fish to the beginning of my finger. My cat's sleeping on my lap as im making this entry. Cute as a button. NOT. Good thing the devil is wasted. He'd be jumping around biting at every ounce of flesh on you thinking you're mickey mouse. He'll bring you down alright. He'll bring you down to chinatown....

Romance: Girl was on off today. Sweet of her to ring me up to ask how i was. 1st day of nicotine abstinence...must stay focused...went well i suppose. Hands are a little shaky, minds a little clouded, body fidgets alot but its part and parcel i guess. You smoke, you pay the price. Hope she's doing ok. Sometimes she says the sweetest things. Just makes my day *swoon*...there's only one thing though. Im not sure if she's treating me as she would any other regular bloke or she's willing to bring things between us a step further. Like ive said, wont do anything until im certain. For now, as adviced by Alec, i'll try to get a 1 on 1 date with her first. See how things go from there.

General: I have officially lost weight! 5 kgs to be exact *round of applause please* But that still doens't make me any less of a walking fishball. Today was a relatively good day. I take that back. Today was an EXCELLENT day. Went to work early. Silly me, thought i was already late. Met Yihui at the zoo entrance. Was doing her snake contact gig. Poor girl. One look at her and i knew exactly what she was thinking. Chair. Then came the gay magic show dude in his sequine littered outfit. I'd call it a shirt only that it didn't resemble one. "Stick around and don't go home yet. The magic show is about to start!". Some people just want to get hit by a stick :D. Work went well. Vinodh wasn't around and i gotta say, today's shows were Rohan's best yet. The bugger and me had to help push the buggy earlier on and fuhhh i tell you. We were like martial-art-trained-gorillas. That said, lets move on shall we.

Friends: Poor Alec has 'Gin' trouble again. Seems that the girl wants to call it quits. I've always believed that everyone does things for a reason and Gin is no exception. Told Alec not to think too much about it. Its all about When and Where Alec. Sometimes, well, most of the time, we have to give and take. Trust me brudder, once you get there, you'll know its worth it :). For now my friend, just be there for her as you've always have. Let her know how resilient a bast*rd you are. She will eventually come to the realisation that you've put in effort into building a solid relationship and the rest, as they say, is history.

Romance: Yihui. Sweet, sweet Yihui. The girl doesn't cease to amaze me. She gave me this card today. Didn't see it coming so it was a pleasant superdiduper surprise. Told me about her day and what went on while she was at work. Included other stuff but they're for my eyes only :D. Was dragging myself to work today. She really made coming down worth my while. Sometimes, its little things like this that fuel your tomorrows. For all that ive done wrong, i must have done something right...Hope she gets her 'eating' *u know what i mean* problem sorted out. Ive got butterflies in my stomach again *swoons*. Or is it heartburn...either way, im falling so hard that i hope.No. I pray that nothing gets permanently broken.

So as a footnote, i quote Jade the binturong. "AEHHHHHhhhhHHGGGGGHhhhhh.....*snort snort*". To good todays and better tomorrows. *has visions of the beheading of the american engineer* So much for sweet dreams....

General: Well what can i say, life can't be more bitter sweet. Had a helluva time at work. Everyone i mean EVERYONE was either screwed, butt-fu*ked, fisted or all of the above by Uncle Vinodh. Needless to say, both the shows turned out horrible. I wish i had a thesaurus around cause horrible is short changing what went on. If i were to go to hell, i stress the word IF, yesterday would come close to being it. At the end of the day, all of us were feeling, well, pretty much fu*ked-up but we got each other through the night. Looked back at what Uncle V said to us and yeah, it was, in a very morbid way, very funny. Sometimes, when you're down and out, its friends like these that keep you going and going and going and going and going and going......

Friends: Yihui and Premela got the bulk of the shaft. Poor Prem was ass reamed i tell you. But she could still afford a smile. I admire her courage. Maybe she's lost it. Either way i still admire her for her 'forget and move on' attitude. Yihui was under pressure the moment she stepped into the night safari. I'd estimate i heard her name on at least 20 occasions over the pacer. Tried to cheer her up and wahey...everyone was happy, well kinda, at the end of it all. *prays and hopes they survive today* Its my off day btw hehe. Wooo...time to catch up on TV. Gawd damn my jaw hurts. Fell on my jaw (im tired of explaining what happened). Chipped my tooth. I need someone to chew my food for me.

Romance: Didn't have much of a chance to talk to her during work last night coz, as i mentioned, she and Premela were at ground zero most of the time. But its nice to see her happy after work. Kinda makes it all worth while you know. I know you dont know but just listen ok. Patience is the key right here. And i think its gonna be worth the wait boys and girls. One day, i'll open up to her about how i feel. Then she'll swoon, say she feels the same way and we live happily ever after. OR, she grabs a blunt instrument a.k.a. spoon, shove it up my *ahem*, and tears me a new asshole. Decisions, decisions, decisions. Well Yihui, i hope you're ready for things to come. Im so screwed if she gets to read this. Well, you know what they say, Carpe Diem. :)

Im off to TV land for now. Until my next visit, remember to reduce, reuse and recycle. Toodles. Sayonara. Namaste. Sawadeekap. Tag. Aurevoir. Ok..im fu*king off already... %$(*&()(@# -_-